i cant help it-I see myself as being fat :( i hate the look when ever i see my reflection! Ive been purging for god knows how long yet it doesnt seem to be getting easier! my bf is starting to get annoyed with me i think-we dont go out for meals any more and i swear he is going ot dump me soon! he is my rock-without him i feel I have nothing to live for!

have only eaten fruit today so my cal intake isnt too high- though in my head it feels to much,like whatever slides down my throat needs to come back up-its like ana is inside my stomache and whatever I eat is burying her alive!